i've moved to blogspot.
didn't i tell?
I DIDN'T??
NO???

oh okay.
so yeah,i've moved.

www.blacksimplicity-x.blogspot.com

will post here once in a while too though.
toodles.

i often project the image that i'm independent.
that i am reliable and trustworthy.
or at least that's what i've been told lah.
not self-praise ok.
hence people trust me to do stuffs for them,
expect me to be able to create wonders,
make everything alright,
get things done once the things are thrown in my direction,
on my shoulders.

sometimes,it is flattering to know that people trust me.
but sometimes,people tend to expect too much from me.
it's as though people forget i'm still an average teen.
an ordinary kiddo who still struggles to make ends meet.
who worries bout not making the cut
or reaching up to people's expectation.

i know i often keep things to myself.
i rarely let people know how i truly feel.
maybe it's due to my fault after all
why people think i'm that way.

there have been times when i've doubted myself.
my own actions,my own thoughts,my own words.
did i do what i did because i wanted to or i had to?
which was more important,what i want or what should be done?

but then again, what i wanted to do was never necessarily good.
whether for me or the people around me whom i care about.
though most of the times i try my hardest to be considerate,
to think of others and not place myself of utmost importance,
at times i feel like being really selfish and self-centred.
but that wouldn't be healthy now would it?

i sometimes don't want to be little miss nice.
i wanna be evil.
i dont wanna be oh-it's-okay kinda person.
i wanna be i-want-it-my-way kinda person.

i never got about to doing it.
(well ok maybe sometimes due to unforeseen circumstances.)
know why?
cuz i'm sensible enough to know it's not worth it.
why be self-centred?
i'll only have myself to care about me and no one else.
why be selfish?
i have nothing to gain but in fact more to lose.
i'll end up hurting the people i dont wanna hurt,
and myself hurting in the end too.

but i guess it wouldn't hurt to be the evil one for awhile now would i?
maybe i'll be just that when i cant take it anymore.

i'm not saying anyone in particular.
just a random thought.

went to college today to help out with the orientation program
for the new intake CAL students.
had to wear an uber yellow digi-ish tshirt which had
'ask me about CAL' written at the back.
acckkk.

it was pretty alright.
jul,kath and i were in charge of PM2.
all 24 of them were rather sporting.
so the activities that were supposed to be carried out
went rather smoothly.
though ironically,i had to help them memorise their classmates' names.
as though i was some database or something.lol.

i gave jul,kath and ying their post-xmas prezie today.
a beary fish doodoll for ying,pinkie pirate doodoll for jul and cupido doodoll for kath. =)
jul gave me ritter sport dark chocolate (ooh my fav,thanks dearie)
and ying gave me a pretty dragonfly necklace.(dragonfly.my fav too.hehe.thanks hun).
ooh and and and kath gave me this bling pipa(dunno how to spell) necklace.it's supposed to be some chinese guitar-ish instrument which is played vertically.but anyways,it's unique.like it alot.thanks darl.

a good start to a new sem.
i seriously need to pull up my socks this year.
buck up and strive.
after a horrid aftermath of not being serious enough in sem 1.
blerghhh.me not like.

bwahaha.
julia,this post is for you.
before you start stabbing me while saying 'i'm sick of your rip cut tear post.update!!'.
okie so here i am.

i dunno why,
i haven't been much into blogging lately.
not that i ever was very into it anyways.
oh wells.it doesn't matter.

i have considered using blogger cuz my friends have been complaining
bout the lousy comment system here.
but being the 'individualistic me' (ahem),
blogger's much too common nowadays.
livejournal makes me different.lol.
(self-deception i know =P)
i'll probably still give it some thought.

jul's coming back today!
and kath too!
i think ying came back yesterday.
so we're probably gonna have dinner together tonight.
whee!
i missed my 3 dearies.
grins.

anyway,this post is a random post.
posting just for the sake of posting something.
i do have more to say but it has to wait
cuz it's kinda inconvenient now.
no explanation offered.period.

toodles.

it has almost been a week since i turned 18 on the 21st of Sept.
so yeah,i'm legal.
so what's the big deal really?
nothing i believe.
well in my opinion that is.
unless like guozheng who happens to relish the pleasure of waving his i/c at clubs.
ajak me somemore.haha.

however,it is my 18th birthday that i realise how much i treasure my friends so much more
and how i am treasured by them as well.
it's not that i never knew.it's just that now i know better.

at the very first minute i turned 18,
siok yin texted me,wishing me a very happy birthday.
we were friends since we were 8 or 9.
and now despite us not really hanging out or chatting as much as normally close friends would do,
there is still this really special bond between us.
where it is incomparable to many other friendships where seem to disintegrate when you talk to each other less or you simply meet each other less.

few minutes after that text,
someone literally across the sea ( the South China Sea to be precise) actually took the trouble to call me.
she was someone i met quite recently but has been a very big part of my everyday life.
and maybe in university even.
she sang me a birthday song and i was very much pleasantly surprised by her gesture,in addition to calling me like from far far away.(okay,maybe not that far.)
we were tight.but i didn't know how tight.i thought that i was just someone else she happens to know along her journey of life.
yes,we hung out.we almost did everything together 5 days a week.(sometimes even 6 to 7 days a week.lol).
but now i  truly know she treasures me as much as i treasure her.so thank you.you know who you are.
if you dont,i'm gonna smack you.lol.i ♥ you to bits.

people texted me,sent me comments on friendster.
some called.
and 2 of the few who called were another 2 people who i treasured despite only being part of my everyday life quite recently.
like that special girl who resides across the sea,
we did almost everything together 5 days a week.
the 4 of us are tight.we even have a nickname for ourselves but let'snot get into that.
and them calling me despite being at different corners of malaysia (north,south and east),
i know that i'm treasured. (i know it's stupid to rate someone just by them calling me on my birthday but yeah,that's what i feel.it ain't matter to you.)

on monday,i was touched once again by the gesture of them 3 who bought me a slice of chocolate indulgence cake plus a candle plus a really cute and sweet card.
see,little things actually make me happy and really content.
seriously i love you guys to death.

apart from them,i also realised how much my perlingians meant to me.
wilson,terence,howard,guo bin,sebastian,clover,li yi,yoke thai,oi ling,yan yang,and li yen.
they are the ones who stood by me,who made my days filled with so much laughter and happy memories.
they are the ones who know me inside out,who know me exactly the way i am.
they are the ones who accept me for who i am without pretence,who accept me despite my flaws.
they are the ones who supported me wholeheartedly,who i know will be there for me.
you people are so much a part of me,
i regret i never told you guys face to face,i really treasure you guys so much.
you guys mean so much to me. ( ok, maybe i didn't say face to face cuz most of you are guys and it'll sound weird).
but anyways.love you all.

last but not least,
i have always known and not only on my 18th birthday,
my family means the world to me.
including my extended family.
well,at least i knew this all along.grin.

and to all the people who texted,wished,called and commented on my friendster,
thank you for making my 18th birthday a really awesome one.
and to my dear vonn and ting,
you two know you guys mean the world to me as well.
you guys are like family.love you two loads.

xxxx.

listen up y'all!
today is the last day of the CLean Up the World Weekend.
have you cleaned up?
start with your own home,community or neighbourhood.
you can make a difference. =)

Clean Up the World Weekend is the focal point of the Clean Up the World campaign where year-round environmental programs are celebrated and is a time of action when millions of volunteers undertake activities such as removing rubbish from the world's streets, parks, beaches and forests and planting trees.
From national clean up campaigns to community recycling and water reuse projects, volunteers conduct a variety of environmental projects throughout the year with activities culminating over Clean Up the World Weekend, this year celebrated on 14 - 16 September.
Clean Up the World, held in conjunction with the United Nations Environment Programme, mobilises an estimated 35 million volunteers from more than 120 countries annually to clean up, fix up and conserve their local environment.

cis i got tagged by my twinn joylyn.
kinda unofficially cuz i commented on her entry and she said,oh you hafta do both surveys too.
nyeh.but anyways.

Fashion Survey
all things fashion!!be honest and tag 5 friends or as MANY as you want at the end of it.have fun!!

~Basics~
Name: Yvonne
Age : 18 ( in a few days time *hint hint*) 
Location : Subang Jaya

~Favourites~
Store : Valleygirl, Supre, FOS, Padini/PDI/PA/Seed, Topshop ( actually i just pijak any floor is see that has racks of clothes standing on it.teehee.) oh and Diva.i love the accessories there.

Designers : no money wey.but i like Pucci.funky colours and prints.Vera Wang too. and ooh, not forgetting Burberrys(i loveee the classic burberry print.)

Place to go shopping : anywhere's fine. out of Malaysia would be better.haha.

Brand Names : err. Seed,Valleygirl,Supre,Topshop,Guess,Puma etc. Come to think of it, i dont really have any favs.

Colour to wear : BLACK.BLACK.BLACK. oh, green and white  too. but definitely BLACK.

Item of clothing you own : hmmmm. none in particular. probably jeans,tees, and knitted tops (not those grandma-ish type ok).

Type of jeans : skinny and slim fit.

Type of tops : tees with catchy phrases and funny words, stripes, polka dots, nothing too bling or complicated. i like simplicity. =)

Type of shoes : my converse sneakers, peep-toes, flip-flops, heels.

Clothing on opposite sex: tees with cool graphics but not too complicated and tees with nice and catchy words. khakis would be fine too.

Types of accessories:  charm bracelet, necklaces with weird and nice pendants, different-from-the-others type of earrings.

~Misc~
What would you never be caught dead in? : leggings. blergh.

How many clothes in your wardrobe? : just nice.i'm happy.but more would be better.haha.

What was the last item of clothing you bought? : a long sleeved grey top which says 'royal pain in the ass'.grins.

If you owned your own fashion label, what would it be called? : haven't though of it before. *thinks hard*

Which celeb's style would you love to steal? : none in particular. they often have fashion disasters.

Do you follow trends? : maybe. but i try to inject some individuality.

What's 'in' in your area at the moment? : harajuku. i know it's been some time but i still see em everywhere. eek.

What colour is a NO for you?: none. all are ok. :)

~VS~
Short skirts or Long skirts? :short

Jeans or Corduroys? : jeans!!!

Hats or Sunglasses? :sunglasses

Tight jeans or Baggy jeans? :tight

Bright colours or dark colours? :dark

Skinny belts or Wide belts? :wide


~Right Now~
Wearing: black tank top with shorts

In your bag: phone,mp3 player, eyeliner, lipgloss, tissue, wallet, pendrive, pen, keys.

Saving up for: jeans.an A|X bag.and loads of other non-fashionly stuff.

Wishing for: more jeans,more nice tops, an autographed chelsea jersey.


~That You Own~
Favourite shirt: isn't it the same as fav type of tops??look up.

Favourite jeans: my Miss Sixty faded one, esprit dunno-what-colour-one and levi's.

Favourite shoes: sneakers and flip flops. and this gorgeous black peep-toe pumps..

Favourite dress: the brown one which looks like a beach dress. =)

Favourite belt: the orange one with buttons from some stall and the white with black holes one.

Favourite Hat : none.i look horrible in em. 

Favourite Piece of underwear: hmmm.i like em all. (i wont buy em if i didnt)


Measure Your Fears - Would You, Wouldn't You, You Did

Pet a snake : i did. it was cold.what dayya expect?

Spend a week in an empty room : would not! i'd go bonkers.

Ride in a hot-air balloon : i'd love too.

Sky dive : i so wanna!

Sing in front of a huge audience :no way! i cant even sing to save my life..

scuba dive : uhhuh. :) i did. nice fishies.

Sit in the front seat of a roller coaster : i fight to sit in front.haha.no,i'm serious.

Deliver a baby : maybe baby animals.but not a human baby. i'd probably tell the mom, dont let it out!!

Swim across the Amazon River : no wayy!!! there's so many creepy stuff in there. i might get chomped on by some croc or anaconda.

Change careers : yes if it's what i want.

Disappear for a long period of time : would not.see i'm good.

Walk through the forest alone at night : no.i'd freak out.haha.i'm such a scaredy cat.

Join a space mission : hell yeah!

Tell everyone what you honestly think of them : it depends. i try to be tactful. not speak my mind like nobody's business.

Call off your wedding : i dont hope to do so unless absolutely necessary.

Walk naked through New York City for 10 minutes during rush hour: kill me first.haha.no way man!

Walk up to Mike Tyson and call him a girl : haha! no no no. wouldnt even dare think of it.

Disarm a bomb: if i know how to,maybe yes. for the greater good and i'll prolly die a martyr.muahahha.

CLean the outside windows of a skyscraper : noo!!!!

Draw a mustache on the Mona Lisa with a permanent marker: haha yea. why not? i'll be remembered forever as the girl who made the mona lisa a man once and for all.. rofl.

Go on tour with Elvis : yes,it'll be cool as long as i'm not touring with his spirit.haha.he's like dead.

Go swimming during a thunder storm : no.i'm chicken like that.

Perform surgery on your best friend : hahaha. *evil glint* no.i'll be so stressed up and end up making matters worse.lol.

i tag NO ONE.
but whoever wants to do it,just grab it.
that's all for now.
toodles.